White Darkness

My, is it dark. There is nothing but a dizzy swaying that sloshes this sticky watery something where I reside. The sides are slick yet chalky and I can't quite latch on. I close my eyes and listen, trying to see a pattern to it all. There is nothing but that darned swishing...until an earthquake hits. At first, the shaking is barely perceptible....more audible as a soft thump than anything...then it picks up intensity, each wave coming with a greater intensity, until the water all jumps at the ceiling, swirling in deadly currents and up and down and up and--

Gravity has ceased. Me and the water--we're all stuck at the top of this dark dome. But  here, our earthly tendencies return, and the top is pulling us in--is this an alien test lab intent on sucking me through this wall?!--with increasing intensity--my legs--until the whistling from outside is a scream--can't breathe--and my head is about to burst--

A SPLAT  resounds dully with the chamber, turning the world right-side up in a sickening jolt. Everything slowly returns to a standstill...and a world is discovered outside. That is, water sloshes and crashes in distant booms, and higher-pitched squeals, grunts, and thuds--is it those two-legs again?--echo from all over.

But, once more, the world is sloshing all over--thuds and rushed air--but abruptly stops. 

A low-pitched grunt echoes from somewhere above. Grab my hammer, it says. (Whatever that means. It's not like two-legs understand much anyways.)

The world lurches down and lands with a crack. Just as the tide starts to calm, ear-splitting, echoing bangs--each the force of the earthquake in one stroke--shudder the walls of this dark, watery dungeon. One, two, three, four...

And with a final BANG, sunlight streams through a jagged hole in the top, and I see that everything is white--the sticky water, the walls...I scramble up the walls, now that everything has stopped shaking, and out to a bristling, brown exterior, hoping the sun will dry my wings before the grab my hammer starts up again. The two-legs seem to be elsewhere, as a high-pitched one answers the low grunting want some coconut?

They're coming again...I guess I just spent the last few hours inside a coconut.

Missing You/Call Me Vain

I told you to stay there
Quietly
Until it was safe to come out.
Where have you gone, my love?

It's been too long, I must admit
Empty hollow
Friendless
At least, company just doesn't count
When You aren't here

Come, come back to me--
We can be one again
No one has to know
Just so you're mine again
please.

Yes, I know you're shy
I promise--
It won't happen again.
We'll be more careful, won't we?
I can't lose you again.

I can't believe I left you
Neglected for so long
When I said
I'd never
leave you
forlorn.

No wonder you eluded me
I don't deserve you
But really, you know
We can't live without each other
separation is death.

Return, dear heart
I swear on you
you're all I need...

And--if ever
Adventure strikes
Even with the death of me
You will survive.

Telltale beating
I know you're here
Welcome home...
You're all I am.

Through Memory or Dreams

I can't do this. There's so much locked inside, but nothing worth saying. I can't tell the truth and I can't lie, but most of all I can't have anyone know that I'm lost and empty--that half the laughs are hollow and most the smiles are fake. Can anyone tell? I watch them all, try to check that no one has cracked my mask, but I cannot see myself the way they do--my reflection looks so flat and lifeless, blurry and dissolving...It's snowing outside and I'm trapped. The hot cocoa that burns away my sorrow has suddenly turned bitterly sweet, just like memory...I am falling, over and over, and the chair I toppled from disappeared, and there is a canyon wall, and a river, and the sky, and my sister calling my name, and the bushes too close, and--CRASH--I would sit there in the attic for hours and listen to the snow drip--off and off the roof, crunching as it hit the snow--because there was nothing else to hear. I was ten and curled up with a book and a blanket wrapped around my mind, a numbing, blissful agony. Time crawled so slowly...there was nothing to see,  nothing to think and nothing inside but old broken dreams, a dumping ground for everyone's problems which lay rotting in my heart. This is why I can't tell--my secrets aren't even mine--but can't not tell...and let truth decay. My own truths are hidden among everyone else's, but there is no one to open the lid on this summer soda can. (They're all afraid of the spray.) So I sit and wait in the attic, falling and spinning...This must be what it's like to be guardian of Hell.

Note to reader: Confused? Think of Inception.

Singing in the Rain

And that's how the world remembered him: defiant. Down to the last moment, the last note--oh yes, there was indeed an end--he never accepted defeat. Never once in that bitter rainstorm; never among the hungry crows; never, as the man without a soul extinguished his own, did he flinch.
He stood proudly on the plank, the rope necklace he didn't quite deserve hanging conspicuously on his spindly neck. He smiled crookedly, as if his girl were approaching from afar in a breezy sundress on a windblown beach.
The figure was not his girl, but his downfall. The man was a black ghost: eerily silent, garbed in silky black cloth that did not budge in the roaring gale and did not dampen in the deluge. Although the defiant man could not hear, the figure was muttering a prayer under his hood, the one he always whispered before the board came down: "They succumb for their sins, let them fall; for in their weakness You are strong. Let regret welcome them in Hell."
But those worry lines were erased from this brave man's face. No regret would welcome him, for it seemed he had never experienced regret. He smiled his crooked smile and waved jauntily at the shadowy figure, then broke into song--a song of his own creation, about the power of truth--the tune harmonized charming innocence with subtle wisdom. Had he been able, he would have skipped. Had anyone been there, they would have wept at the irony.
The dark cloak halted directly in front of the man's shoes, and glanced up, just enough so his mouth leered up at the singing carcass. His lips were cracked and bleeding, but pulled back in a leering grin. He removed the board.
At this point, he would usually stalk away with the same unsettling quietness, mutely thanking the Lord that one more criminal met justice, and never think on the man left swinging there for weeks. This time, he paused. For just one minute, the rain became tears and regret that streaked down his upturned face. Finally, slowly, he turned heel and sauntered back to town, his mouth reshaping the words of the song he silenced, the song that offered such promise.
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Idea credits to Bearamaneramagarrett

naked

I roll sideways off the swing, closing the book as its last words are disclosed. Time for an unwinding, a creation--shucking the shriveling corn ear to bear delicious fruit.
I grab gloves, chemicals, a paintbrush. Then she's handed to me. She lies, beautiful and broken and waiting.
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Stripped bare--down to the last shadow of what once was. But--with love, care, and a little shellac--the lingering shadows melt away to reveal her true light. She seizes her victory stick and sings at the top of her lungs. She is simple--strong. She is brave--fearless. She is pure, pure delight. Some shrink at her name, but all my hours have no shame. She is thankful for that--for the new home within my heart--and does her best to sing ever clearer, ever stronger, in gratitude. Her hollow heart welcomes the hands that caress her neck, back, ribs; those hands that brought her from shamble and ruin, healed all her fissures and impurities; my hands that cured her.

Pride and Prejudice

The earthquake, it shatters their expectations. They can't believe we found our voice, and are singing our praises to the Lord. For every day is a celebration, and we embrace our very identities. We climb from the dregs of misfortune down yonder, to the great machines and skyscrapers and the prosperity that lines every street. Our very souls cry out in exultation, and the music, our own creation, spells deviance from the social standard. Everyone alive, truly alive, that is, dances along.
Yet we cannot forget who we are. They will not ever let us forget. The claw, green with envy, strikes with brutal force, claiming we have no right to set ourselves free from that quagmire. Innocents, just like our Lord Jesus, are struck down by crosses of steel, as the wood ones smolder in the darkness; the price of "liberty" forcefully paid.
Inspired by "Song of the Towers," pictured above, by Aaron Douglas. 

Alone

There she sits, across the way.

There, surrounded by nothing.

Her eyes, downcast, flicker
    Following the shadow of a person
She knows will never glance up.

She is stillness
   And the only one to notice doesn't care
   Glances with unsympathetic eyes
And a self-satisfied smile.

Footsteps
   approaching
But no, they couldn't be.
    Not for her, anyways.

Ever nearer
   My feet slapping concrete
Because I'm nobody as well.
    A nobody with a curiosity, that is.

Why?
   Why the frown?
   Why the silence?
For souls do not cease their singing without reason
    Especially those as beautiful as hers
        At least, how I remember it being.
It's been so long.

Maybe she's not the same?
   Time changes people, after all.
Still I must find out
   Why?

Here I stand.
   What to say?
Her eyes study my shoes.

"April. Are  you all right?"
   The obvious
     And if I'd thought twice,
   A certain negative.

But her eyes glance up
Catch mine

And away I turn.
   Anywhere but there and those haunting eyes.

I cannot think exactly why I ran. Maybe the raw emotion caught me off guard. Maybe the fear, the vulnerability, the pleading. Maybe the anger and hatred. Maybe the pity. Her eyes were a broken bottle: the glass shards scattered hopelessly, forgotten in the empty parking lot.

I may have been curious, but she didn't want my concern.

Her hollow laugh trailed my guilty conscience back home.

Her eyes shift down again
   A tiny sigh escapes her lips
And there she resides
                               broken.